Thursday, December 15, 2022

"...Moments of Despair “I am waving a flag of hope….”

Joshua Lawrence Chamberlain- The Passing of the Armies

Moments of Despair

“I am waving a flag of hope….”


The news, another young life, dancer well known, gone in an instant

“Pure love and light”, hopeful days before, best heart, lovely family, still the despair

Suicide, the surprising news, the shot not heard 1


I’ve had friends and family who had this incalculable loss in life

Stars on the screen I admired, the same devastating loss


A middle-aged mother, depression, so deep, pills at her side, survives but never the same, eyes and life forever changed,

Daughter wishing you could know the mom she knew


A friend’s father, the bridge, a moment of despair, falling when so much to live and rise to, the despairing moment, perhaps grasping, hope to undo, the surrender, white flag on the bridge


Wish we could turn back the clocks of time, for those seemingly invisible, 

to offer love and lifting and help they need

Warn of the thin ice they are walking on


Young student, a teacher soon, military, careless night 

lost all hope rollcall at the church -first name, their last name and their rank, no response, no echo, no life

Painfully onlookers, without breath even to ask why 


Young teenager so beautiful and promising from the swing set hung 

So despairing, at an age when so much possible 

Inconceivable to think she had nothing to live for 

Despairing moment, blind to the future 


Beautiful coworker, singer, Christian advocate, 

Child at home as a mother handling all strife

Despair, a moment, pills take her young beautiful life

The white flag of surrender at her side

No longer singing the song sounding in the hall for all to hear


Author, chef, and traveler, talent to parts unknown 

No reservation of his love and loneliness as well, life hanging in the balance 

Dark and lonely moments, despairing heartbroken

Surrenders, a white flag gently waves at his side


So many promising ones choose the same way

Blinded by despair 

Walking on thin ice, the thin ice that is never safe 

Possibly thinking that persevering through the end means being perfect without flaw

We surrender all, we lift the white flag, but we lift it high in hope, 

Mercy triumphs over judgment.

“…a towel so white. But it bore a mighty message that simple emblem of homely service, wafted hitherward above the dark and crimsoned streams that never can wash themselves away.”2

Therefore, “We do not grieve as one’s without hope” 3


“So, the last question then becomes this: Can a Christian be so depressed and temporarily blinded to the hope of the gospel that he takes his life in a temporary moment of despair? And I think the answer to that is yes.” 4

“Seasons of darkness come and go in the Christian life

But between the terror that we should feel about that choice and the hopelessness for the victim of suicide, between those two I am waving a flag of hope that true faith can have a season that dark.”4



Moments of Despair

“I am waving a flag of hope….”

Glimpse poetry by Joe Holuta


About this Poem: Moments of Despair, "I am waving a flag of hope, is about the loss experienced from suicide, for the person and those they love. Christians with true faith experience as well and I feel they still will be part of our heavenly hope based on their salvation in Christ. I've attended funerals of the ones mentioned above and have looked family in the eye who have lost loved ones to suicide and have tried to provide this flag of hope in such a desperate place. - Joe Holuta


1. Stephen 'tWitch' Boss, DJ for 'Ellen DeGeneres Show,'

https://www.cnn.com/2022/12/14/entertainment/stephen-boss-twitch-dead/index.html


2. 1 Thess 4:13-14  GNT.            “Our friends, we want you to know the truth about those who have died, so that you will not be sad, as are those who have no hope.  We believe that Jesus died and rose again, and so we believe that God will take back with Jesus those who have died believing in him.”

3. Joshua Lawrence Chamberlain- The Passing of the Armies


4. John, Piper Suicide and Salvation

https://www.desiringgod.org/interviews/suicide-and-salvation



Thin ice 


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